Tears express what your mouth cant .. 😷😇

Let go, && let live,

Hold on to what you love ..

Be happy, because you have what most dream for ..

Everyday that goes on, everyday that i get treatment,

It gets harder. 

Fatigue, not holding a morsel of food down, i.v fluid to keep hydrated, phenergan to keep from getting sick, restlessness, joint pain, hair loss, nerve damage, endless ct's && mri's. it gets old fast. 

But i thank god everyday. Because im alive. Because i have my boys, because i have food && shelter, because i have a job, etc.

Every doctors appointment, every blood draw, ct mri && everything inbetween, all i can do is pray && hope for the best. 

Hope that my boys will have a mommy the next day. Hope that i will continue to fight. Whether my body wants me to or not.. I have to. I have too much to live for to not keep this fight going. 

For 22, i havent lived a horrible life, gone through some shit yes .. But who hasn't ?? It could have always been worse. && even now, i still can smile on a daily basis, && say, it could always be worse. 

Live 💛. Love ❤
Laugh 💜. Forever 💙