When ur beyond tht point of healing. . Beyond tht point of trusting anyone. . Even urself .. when ur at tht point, to where u can't evn look in the mirror without being disgusted with ur own reflection. .
I'm there. . I feel like I have to compare myself to all those girls.. all those porn stars. .all the women u talked to. .
All the girls u slept with. . Or lusted aftr. .
&& Thts why I walked away. .
U really think walking away from something I got 5 beautiful kids out of didn't hurt? ? Or tht I don't actually fucking love u ??
No. . My problem was I loved u too much. . More than u deserved. . Because I gave u all of me. . I gave u more than anyone evr had. . && u took advantage of tht. .
U took advantage of me, && everything I evr did for u ..
&& Now its too late. . I'm sorry u can't hide the hurt like me. . I'm sorry u let emotions control u. . But Thts also how u let ur problem control u. . Is because u let it. .
U think it was easy going from doing meth every othr damn day. . To just stopping all togethr ?? No. . I fealt horrible. . Like I was gonna die. . But I didn't let it completely control me. . Because I wanted to be a bettr person. . Not for anyone. . But me. .
I gave u more time && devotion than u evr deserved. .
&& Since its too late. . I'm walking away && strting my life the way I want it to strt. . No more holding back. . No more control .. I live my life. . && U live urs. .
Good luck in finding the nxt girl who can handle u. .. all I kno is u deserved bettr the entire time. .
Sorry for breaking u completely. . But u could never fix me. . Cause ur the one who completely broke me. .
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