The best thing I ever did for myself;

I use to wonder what you thought about when you looked up at the sky && saw the stars, or the moon at night, knowing that those were my favorite things to ever look at.

&& then I found myself thinking less && less of you.

I found myself caring less && less.

&& then the truth came out. && I found out,

what I have now, is love. 

Love is unconditional

Love is forgiving

Love is the man I found

Never in my life, have I ever felt as safe,

as complete,

as whole, 

as I do now.

The fact that I no longer have to beg for things like attention,

like love,

for affection, 

is the best feeling in the world.

The fact that I no longer have to beg for my children to be important in this mans life,

is empowering. 

Because I know, in all reality,

He loves them because they are his own.

He supports every decision && dream they've ever had.

He knows every dream && nightmare they've ever had.

Their favorite colors, their "worst enemies," && their best friends.

Because this man values not only the boys mental health, 

but the food that goes in their little bodies.

He cares about their grades, their stories, their projects.

From tucking them in at night, to walking them into school every morning.

He's more than we could have ever prayed for.

But yet, every day, every morning, every night, there he is. 

He celebrates with every victory && even every loss.

He kisses every bit of hurt away.

Whether it be, my kids or me.

Not once has his hands ever touched my kids nor me in a hurtful way.

Not once nor ever will this mans hands, hurt us; physically, mentally, spiritually, or emotionally.

This man is our saving grace. 

&& I cant wait for all of us to spend the rest of our lives with him.

&& as for the rest of the world, it can either grow up && learn where things went wrong. 

OR it can get the hell out, && deal with the fact that for once, we are all happy && complete.

For once, life is perfect.

&& as I sit here && drink my tea, watching the sun rise, getting ready to hold my boys && my love;

i realize, 

I wouldn't have it any other way.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 New International Version (NIV)

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.