That's who this is about. The only one who will ever make me know what literal hate feels like.
You have more kids than you deserve. More that you take for granted on a daily basis. Knowing that I have the honor && pleasure of kids who are as amazing as they are on so many levels that youll never know or have the chance of experiencing, makes me so sad for them. Because they deserve nothing but the world plus more to know who their father is. But they don't. && the sad && most hurtful part of all is, their father doesn't care to give them that chance to && as much as hes always tried to pin it on me, its his own fault.
I'm sorry, I didn't know that you couldn't manage your money to save for the court ordered anger management classes that you so desperately need. its been a year sir. stop using it as I get 120 in child support every week from you as an excuse. I'm sorry that, because it has been a year, && you haven't taken your classes like you would have ((if you gave a damn about these kids that you lost any judge approved court of ever seeing again)) that you just lost the boys permanently. Because sofi got the no order petition dropped. so pissed off or not at the mother ,you STILL could have asked about them on a daily basis. But you didn't, I understand every kid is important, but you see conner, maci, && Shelby whenever you want to, you never got that liberty with the boys, because they are on a strict schedule with things.
You've missed so many amazing football games. you've missed so many emotions the boys have experienced on so many different occasions. the only reason youll know what they personally wanted to be will be through pictures. you wont get to talk to them or hold them during Halloween, John will, John will be there when they go from door to door. He will be the one to help them collect candy && hell be the one inspecting && begging the kids for some of their candy when the nights over. They have a father figure. So please, continue to try to accuse me of stuff I had no control over. aka yourself, because beyond have failed as a father to these little heathens that ive had the honor of raising, feeding, dressing, playing with, learning with, && growing with. You've failed in so many subjects. && I cant wait for them to understand everything. from the terrible things that you've done, to the things that you have neglected. All these kids deserve better.
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